Lists, reasons, and the good/bad

Real life gets messy sometimes.

I'll break down the bad first, because it's always better to end on a good note than a bad one.



Real Life Mess #1:
-In the past week, two kids from my high school took their own lives. In the past five years, my hometown has suffered through nine suicides. Not a good thing on any level. Hard to wrap my head around too, as I feel suicide is never ever the answer.

Real Life Mess #2:
-I haven't seen V for more than ten minutes in the past TWO WEEKS. I feel like I'm missing my left arm. And most of my brain. Also? I don't laugh as much when she isn't around.

Real Life Mess #3:
-I haven't seen K for an even LONGER period of time. That really really sucks because she's starting to plan her wedding and I hate not being there for her. I also miss laughing with her.

Real Life Mess #4:
-I really just miss laughing. I've been spending lots of time with myself (and my Trey-cat) and although I think I'm absolutely hilarious... sometimes I get bored with myself. It takes a lot for that to happen though, mostly because I've been living at the library or staying up way too late reading articles about the IMF, why international relations has two-level games and what the consequence of pulling out of SAP is.

Real Life Mess #5:
-While I have accepted that I really do love my job, I have been spending way too much time there. I find that when I do dream at night, I am constantly having nightmares that I overslept, I didn't make that drink, and more often than not I just dream of a normal shift. I bore myself AWAKE it's so lame.

None of these things are actually bad. They're just things that are happening.

After the bad comes the good, which leads me to these!

Real Life Joy #1:
-I am not only getting along with my coworkers, I am actually hanging out with them outside of work. I attended game night this week and it was really fun! These people are smart and funny and interesting.

Real Life Joy #2:
-My cousin performed in her high school play this evening and I was so proud of her I could just burst. I love watching her perform on stage, she's so charismatic and fun and glamorous! Watching her have so much fun makes me miss it that much more, however. It's a heartache every time I see a stage, and especially when I watch her have such a good time. I miss it so much.

Real Life Joy #3:
-THIS SEMESTER IS ALMOST OVER. I am so excited about this I could CRY I just want to be done and not have to write a paper for a while. Because these next two weeks are going to suck, but the end result will be totally worth it.

Real Life Joy #4:
-I got new glasses and they are so dorky and sophisticated at the same time. I feel very intelligent and knowledgeable while wearing them. I also feel pretty sexy. Win/win!

Real Life Joy #5:
-My second cousin just had a baby! A new member of the family is always exciting and he is so stinking CUTE I just want to cuddle him all day.

Real Life Joy #6 (because the good has to outweigh the bad):
-Thanksgiving is next week. Which means delicious food and fantastic family time. And B :)



There is no reason behind this post. Except to brag about my new glasses, because seriously? I look badass.